the letter

the crushing feeling of (A)...
minus
her face brightly lit behind a computer screen
'you're worthless'
'you're nothing'
oh, how the letter screams
at me
i should have
could have
didn't
do better
i have
to be better
but at the end of the day
the tears on my face
and the pit in my chest
will only get wetter
because this is who you are
this is who i am -
a letter on a screen
to summarise the ever present failures of my life's plan
'but you're young' and
'you're learning'
the silhouettes try to shout at me
but i failed
and i'm a flower that's dying
wilted in a heap.
i know i'm dramatic
and 'it's not the end of the world'
but what you don't get,
dear teacher
is that i'm still just a sensitive little girl.


- charlie.